Saturday, June 5, 2010

ROUND 2, DAY 5

I know this round is kicking my butt more because it started earlier (Wednesday) and it's lasting longer. Here it is Saturday afternoon and I'm still very weak and tired.

I'm also very weepy. I have to work hard at not crying. It would be very easy for me to lock myself away in my bedroom and have my own little crying party. But I don't want to cry - there's no logical reason for me to be crying - and I want to spend time with my family, so here I sit watching the kids play on the wii, feeling detached and spent.

What I really want is to feel somewhat normal again.

8 comments:

Mommy, I'm Home said...

There's nothing wrong with crying, Diana. Bet your family won't mind one bit.

{{{{{HUGS!!!!!!}}}}}}

mom said...

Do whatever you need to do for yourself, sweetie. We're here for you 100% You're always in my heart!

Don Varey said...

:-( wish I could help you feel more normal! I love you!

Steve said...

Not to make (too much)light of what you are going through, but you were never all that normal to start with. :)

Sis said...

Isn't your bother (I mean brother) always good for a LOL! Not only do I hope you cry when you need to but I pray God will give you the capacity to give yourself immense amounts of grace. There's nothing like living in His grace when we can't do what we want or need to do. This helps us know how to pray too, thank you. Love you and prayin' for you.

Dad said...

Oh, that son (#1) of mine! There was once a little boy who liked to pull the cat’s tail and do all sorts of awnry, abnormal things. He grew out of it thank the Lord. But thankfully you girls were always so sweet and normal. Just give yourself some time dear, you’ll feel better than normal after this is all over. Praying for the Lord to bless you. Loving you!

MightyMom said...

hang tough friend...hang tough.

you'll make it through the good days AND the bad ones to the other side.

Anonymous said...

I was weepy for a few weeks and finally got some anti-depressants to get me over the hump. I could not help it. Everything made me cry. I think it is just physically and emotionally draining to go through all this. I remember Melissa Etheridge saying "I felt like I just went away for a while". I could relate. It was not ME ....it was like I was someone else.....so I just let God carry me. Hang in there....it will get better.
This is the tough part. Climbing the mountain of God and the way down is much easier.